Chasm

Today I have a slight sense of depression enstilled within me for various reasons. First of all I must say that I HATE January! I always have and I always will. Nothing good ever comes out of it and nothing eventful occurs during it. No holidays, religious fasts, nothing. The Barter Theatre is also very much closed in January too. As they resume rehearsals from a holiday, no shows are on stage nor will be until February. NOTHING HAPPENS IN JANUARY!

School reopens tomorrow after our Christmas "vacation." If you can call it that. Two weeks is not, to me, a vacation from that hell place! We deserve a whole month off for the miseries we endear at Abingdon High! And besides, colleges not only let out earlier, but most don't resume until the twelfth of January at the earliest! This is one of the major contributors to my "depression" as I hate school. I don't hate learning at all! I actually love to learn, and invite challenges to overcome, so it's not that either. It's just that I hate learning things I HATE. Sure, they're supposed to give me more logical thinking skills, but I'm sure that there's anotehr way of doing this. If I were to study the views Henrik Ibsen had on life instead of telophase and interphase all day, I'd have no problem and actually look forward to returning to school. Ah well, one more year! That's what I keep telling myself, and I think it's the only thing keeping me sane...

Then, another thing that's made me a little more sadder over the past few days is the departure of Peter Yonka and Evalyn Baron from the Barter Theatre back to their home in New York City. This very unique and ridiculously over talented couple have been acting at the Barter for the past three or four years and have contributed greatly to the artistic efforts in this area. Their talents, however, are only preceeded by their unprecedented kindess which seems to be never ending. Evalyn and Peter are two of the nicest people I have ever met, and probably ever will meet. I truly hate to see them leave. It will be most unfortunate for Barter. By reading Evalyn's blog (www.compostmoi.blogspot.com ) I sense that she hates to go too, but is very excited about returning to the big apple. Reading her thought's, I think I'm able to connect with her feelings, which makes me feel very depressed, empty and hollow, yet strangley warm and optimistic at the same time. But mostly depressed, added with the fact I hate to see them leave. But that's ok, because Evalyn is an AMAZINGLY awesome writer as well, and only a good writer could create such emotion in a reader. I love reading her blog to not only see what's she's into, as she's such a neat person, but because I can get those emotions through her writing. It's like a natural high. I know that's weird, but I really hate to see these people go and I hope they come back soon and often! And I know that they'll prosper and do wonderfully in the city. As Evalyn has already been on the Broadway stages a few times, I know she'll have no problem and I think we'll be seeing Peter's name in light's shortly. Evalyn and Peter: I wish you the best of luck in the city as with your careers (even though I know you don't need it). God bless you and may you have a wonderful and prosperous life in the city! Keep in contact with me! Read my blog, and I'll read yours, and send the occasional e-mail. And hopefully when I'm in the city, we'll be able to catch up and have coffee, lol.

Anyway, that's why I feel the way I feel. The culmination of it leads of to a trapped, endless feeling. I guess I'm not really depressed, and that was a bad way of saying it. I just hate January. After this month though, will come happiness and wonderful, wonderful bliss when I can again usher or work on a new project! But now I must sleep, for school begins again tomorrow!